You say I always come first. You think of me before anyone else. You clearly don’t!!
why is it always me that says the things like..
-I wanna be with you.
-I miss you…
Etc…
I know your trying to move on but comm’on! Just tell me otherwise I’ll think that you don’t anymore and I’m making a fool out of myself even more!!
I pour my heart out to you all the time and you don’t seem to react the same. is it time to stop trying? love? What’s the fucking point. It ruins everything. I hate myself! I fucking hate myself!!!!!
I just need someone that wants me for who I am, that doesn’t judge me for my mistakes, someone that makes me feel good about myself :(( I have a best friend that does all them things but I want more! :’( this whole thing is killing me!!
ϟ 10 things you hate that you do and don’t tell anyone:
1) that I get jealous over everything.
2) that I find it difficult to talk face to face when talking about feelings.
3) that I look in the mirror and hate what I see.
4) that I miss you every second of everyday that I live.
5) that I have to put a on a brave face and a fake smile every day.
6) that I say I’m not going to hold you back but that’s all I want to do.
7) that my heart sinks everytime I see you.
8) that I have to pretend everything’s ok when it’s not.
9) that I find it difficult to let you go.
10) that I cry myself to sleep almost every night.
